Manic Episode

Have you ever sat and cried for no reason? Have you ever lost it? Was in the presence of another person? Well, let me tell you a little story about the day I lost it. It was last Wednesday.

The stress had been building up for a couple days. Makayla and Kennedy had been brats that day and the previous. After work, we went to my parents house, to love on baby Keldon and play Apples to Apples. We get there and guess what, NO KELDON. Disappointment 1 of the night..

Disappointment 2? My mom changed her mind and forced my favorite little brother to go to mutual. So that meant no Apples to Apples. At least, not till later. Disappointment 3? There was no dinner, (dinner is part of the reason I go to my parents because I love my moms cooking). I ended up having a bowl of cheerios.

Then while everyone was out for the night, I decided to do something nice for my parents. Christopher and I cleaned the house. Did we get a thank you when everyone got home? NO. I didn't get squat. That was disappointment 4. And then, to make matters worse, we stayed till 11:30, which is WAY past my bedtime.

So by the time we were on our way home, I was on the verge of a melt down. I remember telling Chris something I was worried about and asking a question. Now, to make things clear, it wouldn't have mattered what his response was, the reaction would've been the same. All of a sudden, this burning sensation began to take over my body. I snapped. I started raising my voice. I WAS MAD. About this time, we were pretty close to my house.

We pulled up and I continued into the house. I don't remember how long I argued but I do remember bringing up things that didn't even upset me. I just wanted to fight. Finally, as my manic episode subsided, I became a waterfall. Tears began streaming down my face because I realized I had gone insane. As the tears stopped I fell asleep and when I woke up, I was perfectly fine and the night before seemed like a dream.

Can you believe Chris didn't run away in utter terror?

I love my kids and I love my job.

And this is why. 

In his adorable baby talk Mason just said, "I wub you tepnie." Translated, it's "I love you Stephanie."

Important background information, Makayla and Mason are half Filipino half Caucasion. Their mother is from Michigan and their father is from the Philippines .  


 

This is a conversation between Makayla and myself. 

Makayla: Did you know that Filipinos love mangos?Me: I didn't know that, does that mean you love mangos because you're Filipino?"
Makayla: "Yeah, but I'm only half.
Me: Only half what? Filipino?
Makayla: YES! (In a very exasperated manner.)
Me: What's your other half?
Makayla: Michigan, DUH! (even more exasperated)

This is my favorite quote from Kennedy. 

Kennedy: When I grow up, I'm going to fall in love, get a husband, and buy 2 kids. One is going to be a girl and she's going to have a little brother. 

Chris Proof

Last week I wrote about our cake taste testing adventure and I mentioned the incident that occured in Millie's shop. Now I have an update. We went in this past Saturday because we were craving her cupcakes and she had made some changes in her little shop.....

Now it's Chris proof

HAHA!! That's right. She put it inside a glass container just in case Chris ever came back.

Hope you had a good laugh too.

The Next Cool Thing

I got a new toy!

The Logitech Speaker LapdeskN700!!!

It's like having a theater on my lap. It even has a quiet fan that keeps my computer cool. It was a gift from Christopher. Everyone should have one. It's the new cool thing. 

And if you were interested in the cupcake shop here's the link.

Things Wasted

Why, as human beings, do we waste things? We waste money, love, TIME, and countless other things.

I buy things labeled as wants when I should have bought something that's necessary.

God has given us great gifts. Our bodies and our minds and our hearts. With our bodies we can give service and love. We can be happy through being humble and giving; selfless and kind. With our minds we can attain knowledge and share that knowledge with others. We have the ability to observe; observe those who need a kind word, love, and a friend. With our hearts we can actually give this love.

But we seem to waste these gifts in some way everyday. Some may not be actively searching for knowledge. There are those who are searching but not for the right kind of knowledge. Others may ignore someone in need. We give love to things that have no importance in the whole scheme of things. Things like clothes, celebrities, TV shows, cars. We waste our minds by "stimulating" it with things like Family Guy or South Park, magazines, and gossip.

I am a procrastinator. I don't know why because I hate it when it happens. For example, I have been needing to clean my room for over a week. Each time I walk into my bedroom, that's what comes to my mind, "WOW, I really need to do something about this." And for the past two weekends and even a night here and there during the week I've set aside some time to get it done. But when the time comes, I find myself doing other things. Things like facebook, planning and researching my wedding, blogging, or the just laying in bed relaxing(aka napping). But at the end of the day, I've accomplished nothing and I can feel it.

We are all under the illusion that we have time to do whatever we want but in reality we have very little time. I wonder how much time I would have if I added up the hours wasted on frivolous things. Thinking of all the things I could have done with my time depresses me. But that's in the past and the only thing I can do is move on and be better.

I will try to not waste anymore. I'm going to begin to think of ways to better spend my gifts.

Cake Tasting

Yesterday, Christopher and I went cake tasting, trying to find the person who can make my perfect cake, but within our budget. First we went to a place in Pasco. Upon pulling into our parking space, we had to rush into the bakery in fear that we might get shot. JOKING. They had something called Tres Leches, or in English, Three Milks. It was VERY good. The best that Christopher, who served his mission in Mexico, has ever had. They also had german chocolate, chocolate, coffee cake, and carrot cake. Which were all right. They were a little dry. I wasn't LOVING the cake or their cake designs.

So we moved on to the next bakery. This brought us to a little place in Richland. We pulled up to the address that they had given us only to discover that no body was home. The building was empty, there were giant disgusting rodents of unusual size creeping around corners and along the walls, and I'm pretty sure there were a few dead bodies. Needless to say, we didn't think they made good cakes so we moved on to the next bakery.

This found us in downtown Kennewick, were once again we had to rush inside in fear of being shot.

We walk into this cute little cupcake/cake/deli shop. You're probably thinking exactly what I was thinking. Weird combination. But anyways... we walk to the counter and ask for Mellie, the woman who owns this adorable little shop. As we're waiting for her, Chris found a cute cake topper. They were eggs dressed up with fondant made to look like a bride and groom. He was playing with them, making them talk to each other. As he's doing this Mellie finally comes out, sees him playing with them, walks over to the counter, rips them out of his hands, and says, "These aren't toys." HAHAHAHA. A few seconds later, he leans over and says to me, "She seems very angry with me." It was priceless.

So here we were tasting these cupcakes and I have to tell you, they melted in my mouth. They were absolutely the most delicious things I'd ever tasted. Mellie brought some red velvet, double chocolate, white, Madagascar white.. and so many others. She brought out a double chocolate cupcake filled with her own raspberry filling. As my taste buds were thanking me and worshiping Mellie, I knew our search was over. Now I'm not going to tell you exactly what flavors we got because that would just ruin the surprise, but I will tell you that you and your taste buds will be thanking me and worshiping Mellie as well.

Since today is positiv gorgeous and Mama and Papa Baer are in California, we(Christopher and I) taking the girls, getting sandwiches, picking up some cupcakes(YAYY!!!) and heading to the park for a fun filled day.

For the past week or two my priorities have been out of whack. I've been too caught up in planning my wedding. This includes spending time and money going to useless bridal shows, planning when I should be working, and worst of all, not giving Chris the love and attention he deserves. The control freak in me comes out and I start thinking of all the things that aren't planned yet. The honeymoon, flowers, guest list, engagement pictures, DJ or band, no videographer, no bridesmaid dresses, no passport or visa, haven't started registry yet, haven't started dance lessons, and I haven't reserved the tuxedos. So then, I get all stressed out and I feel like pulling my hair out.

But I started thinking this morning, "Does any of this really matter?" Is it THAT important? So today, I'm turning off my brain and having fun.

Old Pictures and Memories

I found some old pictures the other day and figured I'd post them.

I was able to sneak baby Abby away from the rest of the family and take a little nap. I believe this was taken late winter of 06.




Cousin Kelsie and I at a Thrift Store. Summer of 07. Maybe 06.






Day trip to Seattle. Absolutely. Gorgeous.
Brothers +Me. Summer 08.









Baby Abby and I. Summer/Fall 06

Hope you enjoyed!