Nuptials and Jealousy

Jonathan and Kailey are getting married this weekend. 

5 days.

I am jealous.

Extremely.

I wish it were Christopher and I.

We wouldn't have to say bye at the end of the day.

I love them

and

I'm happy for them.

But darn them for being so lucky.

Still considering eloping.

Slightly.

It's always in the back of my mind.

Like Christopher once said,

"June, you are the thorn in my side and I hate you. 

You think you can run and hide behind

January, February, March, April, and May? 

Well guess what, I'm going to hunt you down!"

Motorcycles and Coasters

I love bikes. If it's on two wheels and moves forward, I love it. I loved riding my bike as a kid and even now I wish that I had a bicycle to ride on nice sunny days.

I also love speed.

Which means that I love motorcycles. All of them. Cruisers. Sport bikes. Mopeds. My love began when my dad got a bike a few years back. Till that time I had never been on a motorcycle. Then I went out a few times with a  guy for a week or two just because he rode a bike. I knew a woman who, in her younger years, had owned a Harley and had driven cross country with other riders. I knew then that I wanted a bike of my own for my husband and I to ride. Papa Baer has a bike. A very nice, beautiful, lovely bike. 

This past Saturday was absolutely gorgeous and guess what, Papa Baer took yours truly for a ride. While on this ride, I figured out why I love riding so much. To me, riding a bike is similar to riding a roller coaster. I realized this when we came upon a HUGE hill. Just like a coaster, you can tell when the big drop is coming before you get there and although for me, there was no big rise before the drop like there would have been on a roller coaster, the thrill for the hill grew as we got closer. As we cleared  the hill I was already thinking about how exciting it would be go back up. And just as your stomach knots up when you are slowly chugging up a rise, my stomach was in knots flipping and turning with excitement. It was a delightful experience.

Ps. For the thrilling roller coaster feel, hills are optional because even when the bike shifts gears you get similar internal sensations.

Do you love bikes as much as I do?

Sorrow That the Eye Can't See

He didn't treat her nice. He was mean and abusive

towards her and the children. 

Towards his grandkids, he is only slightly better

but only because they are not his.

She was kind, gentle,and caring

She served and loved the Lord, family, friends, and strangers.

Her sense of humor and the sound of her voice

brought smiles to those around her

After 30+ years together, the cancer took her away

within months he marrys another.

Towards me, he is anything but grandfatherly

I hear criticism and harsh tones

I was unable to forgive him

Unable to invite him to the happiest day of my life

Until these words pierced my heart 

like never before.

Lord, I Would Follow Thee

Who am I to judge another
When I walk imperfectly?

In the quiet heart is hidden

Sorrow that the eye can't see.
Lord, I would follow thee.

Savior, may I love my brother
As I know thou lovest me,
Find in thee my strength, my beacon,
For thy servant I would be.
Lord, I would follow thee

Then the peace that the Spirit poured 

into my heart overwhelmed me. 

As forgiveness filled my heart 

huge tears spilled down my cheeks.

My heart is healed and I feel no more bitterness

Blind Side

Without a doubt one of my favorite movies of 2009 was The Blind Side. I saw it in theaters twice and I've watched it several times since it came out on video. We watched it again at my parents house Sunday night and I've been thinking about it ever since.

My favorite part of The Blind Side,

Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or mistake, but you're not supposed to question adults, or your coach or your teacher, because they make the rules. Maybe they know best, but maybe they don't. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn't at least one of the six hundred guys think about giving up, and joining with the other side? I mean, valley of death that's pretty salty stuff. That's why courage it's tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you're doing something. I mean any fool can have courage. But honor, that's the real reason for you either do something or you don't. It's who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important, then you have both honor and courage, and that's pretty good. I think that's what the writer was saying, that you should hope for courage and try for honor. And maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some, too. 

What do you think of honor?... Integrity?

Missing Bike

The first time I ever read this 

was when my friend Ashleigh showed it to me. 

And it seems that whenever
I need a good laugh

I run across this picture. 

It always succeeds.

I thought you might enjoy it as well.

Got Milk?

The weekend of April 16-18, we will be in Salt Lake for Jonathan's wedding(Chris's brother). I also have friends who live there. One of them, MerriLyn, I haven't seen since last August and Kelly I haven't seen since last October. So as you can imagine, I'm pretty excited for our trip. But then I read/heard about an event that blew my excitement level into a previously unknown territory.

If you know me at all you know that I love milk. If you know Christopher you know that he loves milk even more than I do.WE LOVE MILK. It was one of the very first things we found out that we had in common. That and our love of caring for special needs children. We could drink an entire gallon in one day. Especially REALLY cold milk. It's my third favorite thing, right behind Chris and Chocolate. When we get married, half of our fridge will be filled with milk. I could go on for hours about how much I love milk... and dairy... like cheese.. and butter... Cows are great.

Seriously though, I found out that the National "got milk?®" Milk
Mustache Mobile Tour is crossing the country from March to September to show everyone that it's DELICIOUS,  NUTRITIOUS, AND AFFORDABLE. 

And guess what?! The Milk Tour will be in Salt Lake the SAME weekend we will be there!! And to promote milk they are giving it away for free at the Olympic Plaza at the Gateway. How fanfreakintastic is that????? I almost cried. Seriously. Free Milk. We are so there!

A Thousand Mile Journey

I got so much out of the 

Saturday session of General Conference this year.

One of my favorite talks was

from Jeffrey R. Hollands talk. 

He said something along the lines of this,

"A thousand mile journey begins with one step

SO WATCH YOUR STEP." 

Are my steps taking me in the right direction, the best direction?

Am I stepping backwards or forwards? 

Where are your steps taking you?