He knew....

I just finished watching this and right now, I'm listening to the song we've chosen for our first dance and my heart is full.

I feel grateful and uplifted. I feel strengthened and empowered.

Getting married is going to bring on more and greater responsibilities and I have been worried lately that I won't be able to handle everything. We haven't found an apartment yet. We don't know exactly what we are doing about school. We don't even have a solid budget since our income changes weekly thanks to this wonderful place

But my faith has been renewed. I know that as long as we are doing what we are supposed to, everything will be okay. I know that as long as we continue to pray our tithing, go to the temple often, pray, and study the scriptures, everything will work out. Times might/will be tough and I understand that but I know that it won't because we will endure till things get better.

Last night, as we knelt down and prayed together I was overcome with peace that I am exactly where I'm supposed to be and that I am doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing. I am feeling that same peace again. Chris is sitting across the room from playing some silly game on his iphone. I love his laugh. I love his facial expressions. I love his noises and his sound effects. I love his heart. His soul. His being.

He knew all the things you would face

and he knew, what you would need

so he prayed and he cried and he fell upon

his knees, it hurt more then you know. 

he knows who you are

he believes, you will make it through

and he knows all the things your gonna do

no matter what you're going through

Because the Savior knows each one of us individually, he knew what we would need, from him and in this life. He knew that each and everyone of us would need a Redeemer. He also knew that we would need "helps" in this life. He knew that I would need Christopher. It's only been 5 months and I've needed him more than I ever needed anyone before. For some reason, Christopher is my other half. He knows me and understands me. He encourages me to look up and live. He encourages me to have faith, to pray, to study, to love others, and to be a disciple of Christ. What would I ever do without him?


He knew that I would need Him. I would need Ashleigh, Mama Baer, my favorite Aunt Kim, my mom, and all the many people who have been there and loved me in my life. He knew that I would need the scriptures and the Holy Ghost. He knew that I would need A LOT of helps. Because of all of these things I am going to the temple. A few years ago, I didn't think I would ever make it. I wasn't even planning on it. But now, because of the patience, forgiveness and help that I have received, I am getting married here.